The True Reality of a Faithful Dreamer

lil_kenobi_obi @ 2007-09-10T13:19:00

2007-09-10T17:24:40Z

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Image:DMC4BoxArt.jpg

OMG...Nero look so hot! XD Dante is giving me the wibbles right now. 83 Despite him having a slight goatee in the game and not being able to play with him... *rereads last sentence* O////O That looks so wrong....and yet, so right! XD *fangirl spasms* I hope they bring back Vergil :3 He was the awesome in the last game =D

I so wanna buy this game =D

Plus note: A new fandom to add to my brain!

Naruto! =D Congrats, you'll be sitting next to Devil May Cry. XD

~~and omg, another post so soon? XD Unconceivable!~~

Formal Report assignment (Help might needed)

2007-09-10T15:42:47Z

Ohayo!

Its me again! *gasp!* I'm posting again so soon! XD Ah don't mind me, just alittle hyper...and hungry. Anyhoo, my second week of college and it seems to be going well. I'm already working on my Formal Report for my Report Writing class. My topic is 'Differences in the Education between the Coastal Communitites and Southern Communities'

(I have no idea what to call Timmins, lol, but I guess it would do for now until I get a better word for that. XP )

If one likes to contribute, please either comment, or email me at lil_kenobi_obi@yahoo.com

Doesn't matter what you wanna contribute, maybe a better topic title? XD or maybe on what you think on the education system. Whichever, your contribution will end up in my formal report someway, somehow. 83

Heck, maybe I'll post up a survey or something! =D Well, let me know what you think. If you want more details, just comment or email moi!

lil_kenobi_obi @ 2007-09-07T12:11:00

2007-09-07T16:16:21Z

20 Weeks ago I had last posted. Wow, how time flies when one is on medication and working through the summer. Well, I'm in college again, and this time I plan to pass all my courses and get a G.P.A higher than a 1.70. My highest ever was 2.67.

Well, for my courses, I'm taking:

Abnormal Psychology
Fieldwork Preparation
Report Writing
Interviewing Skills I
Creative Arts Workshop III

Not bad, atleast I don't have to take Role of the Assistant again, man that class was tough. Assignments are a bitch, but I'll try to finish them as soon as possible so I can get them out of my way. :P

I wonder if I'll have to meet up with my Shrink once again....Maybe, most likely. -_-;;

Anyhoo, need to make this short, got class in about....15 minutes, and need to pick a spot. Seeya!

Meme

2007-04-13T19:21:22Z

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

× I miss somebody right now.	× I don't watch much TV these days.	× I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes. ((All the fuckin time =D ))	× I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. ((just something to get rid of a little stress))

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	× I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	× I need/want money right now.
× I love sushi.	× I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling. ((Got two living, one deceased.))
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look. ((Meh, who wants to change?))	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
× I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent. ((I can bend my wrist a complete 180 degrees to my forearm, just one side though))	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	✓ I have a lot of friends. ((Course, most of them live out of town and I can only talk to some online.))
× I have pecked someone of the same sex.	× I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
× I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone. ((Don't use it much))	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	× I've rejected someone before.
× I currently like/love someone.	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	× I want to have children in the future.
× I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
× I have a lot to learn.	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	× I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
× I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
× I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
× I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can.	✓ I have jumped off a bridge. ((Do characters in video games count?))	× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	× I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	× I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
× I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	× I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. ((Who wouldn't try it if they had the chance?))	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist. ((In the art of drawing and making a mess of my room XD ))	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	× I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	× Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	× I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal. ((Pretty much..))
× I can't stand being alone.	× I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	× I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
× I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. ((Oh come on, who hasn't done that once in thier lifetime? XD))
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	× I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	× I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	× I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	× I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet. ((Well duh))	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	× I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

lil_kenobi_obi @ 2007-04-02T22:36:00

2007-04-03T02:57:39Z

Oh man, when was the last time I post in here? Too long I'm guessing, but who cares? No one reads this anyway, so why should I bother? The only reason being is that I need to some outlet before it gets too self-destructive. Believe me, I still got the scars from the last time I didn't find an outlet for my feelings. Well, all of this comes off, I some way to get this off my chest.

What is being said here, has not been told to anyone else, even my dearest closest friends. The only one told was that lady who was doing the assessment, forgot what title she had.

I, Sheena Robin Kioke Kebokee, had engaged in self-destructive behaviours, and have thoughts of death in my mind. Meaning for those who dont know some of those terminology, I cut myself basically. The thoughts of death were of anything, but mostly of myself dying, either violently, accidently or by my own hand, so in a way, its suicidal thoughts.

The only reason I brought this up was because I was recently diagnosed with Major Depressive Episode, a symptom of a Mood Disorder. Usually shown by highly persistent depression, which is often manifested by lack of appetite, chronic fatigue, lethargy, and sleep disturbances (somnipathy).

I have had thoughts of suicide in way as I described earlier, and I always have them every day, 24/7. I also have a fascination with death itself. What was it like to die? Where do we go when we die? These questions have plagued me ever since I was a child are my great-grandmother, Gods bless her soul, passed away. They had increased when my grandfather passed away about 5 years ago, it still plagues me since.

Maybe, one day or another, I will know what they went through, sooner or later.

I'm gonna see a shrink?..

2007-01-06T05:47:31Z

Well, its a new year, a whole new year for discovery and change. Good changes I hope. I am to see a Psychologist sometime this month, to see what type of a Learning Disability I might have. Its not worrying me, but it might explain why I have so much trouble doing this and that. It'll be good to know that I'm not stupid or anything like that. Anyhoo, Happy New Year to all, may it be a good year of Change and Discovery. = )

P.S: Merry Christmas, even though its passed already, lol.

My Xmas Stocking

2006-12-13T03:37:06Z

Xmas Stocking

leave a gift for lil_kenobi_obi

get your stocking

I didnt know this.

2006-10-30T20:56:38Z

I play Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion on my 360, and I went and up my character to a nice high level befuore tackling the first Oblivion Gate..and I seriously didnt know this would happen, apparently, depending on what level you are, they give you creatures that would match up to your level.

For example, I was at level 15 or higher when I went to go tackle the Oblivion Gate at Kvatch, instead of the usual goblins and scamps, I get Daedreths, and those things that look like a Triceratops on two legs!! I was like 'WTF?!..This aint good..' So, here I am, taking on giant crocodiles on two legs, triceratops on two legs with my bow and arrows, like hell I would face those things up close!..I finally finish taking out the gate, and we charge into Kvatch, and guess what I see?..Yes, more of those damn things, with those firey monsters as well...so, There I was, making sure those damn things dont kill me, and making sure those other guards stay alive.

We finish up the Deadra and make sure all the survivors leave Kvatch, then being the idiot I am, I decided to go on and finish the damn objective of saving the rest of Kvatch, great, more of those damn creatures..thankfully I finished the damn objective, and became the Hero of Kvatch..is the title worth it?...I say damn right it is! =D

On another note, I finally learn how to do those damn LJ cuts! Hoorah! V for Victory! =D

We're Doomed! D=

2006-10-20T18:06:24Z

Ok, it was bad enough with the threat, but now thanks to my Health and Nutrition class, this is making my paranoia worse, it seems we are overdue for a Pandemic, and with the Avian bird flu, and the recent quaratine at some University in Nova Scotia, seems this is alot closer than I thought...

I really don't care whether I get the flu or not, but I'm worried about my family and friends, particulary those between the ages of 20 and 55, cause what I heard from my Professor is that those people within that age group, it will more likely target them then the elders and little ones.

Ack, I need to watch something to take my mind off it, going to watch Fantastic Four, Ioan in his Mr. Fantastic suit is hot... --drools-- =P~

Racial Threat at College, Part II

2006-10-20T00:37:47Z

Ok, here is the deal, we had a meeting with the Manager of the College, early on this afternoon, they said there was an incident where the individual made a comment to do bodily harm. It took place last wednesday, and as of now, the individual, who they kept the name withheld from us, is no longer allowed back on Campus. He can continue his education with the College, but is not to come back on campus...ever, which thankfully I find grateful.

I no longer find myself paranoid, but I find the security guys funny, because one of them is wearing the uniform, but with sneakers..lol, and they carry a little baton, which aint going to do much good if that guy does follow up on his threat. I mean come on, a security guy, wearing sneakers with his uniform, and carries batons, against a guy who could come in with an Ak-47..kinda makes you think that who are the college hiring these days, lol.

I know its hard to laugh about the fact that we have been threatened with bodily harm, but its usually how we work sometimes, when we get scared, we tend to make jokes about our particular situation and all that. Crazy, but its how us Crees work, lol. This is the same race that thinks everytime they see another native wearing a two piece suit, they automatically think they're going to court, lol.

Later! -Crazy native girl

Racial Threat made at the College, Part I

2006-10-18T21:20:26Z

Ok, this is all I know by listening to the student who attended the actual class, and from what I got from other students, while a native student did a presentation on Aboriginal issues, they went into a discussion on the subject. What I heard that one of the male students got really angry and made a racial threat, saying that he was going to kill the native students. I don't know when it happened, but it did and now Security measures are being taken without notifying the students about why there were more Security guards than normal. The reaction of the students vary, some feel safe, some are scared.

Frankly, I'm both nervous, and angry about how the situation is being handled by the College, I know I'm probably being rash, but most of the native students believed if it was a native student that made the threat, the police would be called, the students informed and that person would go to jail. This makes us feel not equal in the views of the college, and thus make us angry.

The students that were in the class itself when it happened, were told to keep the situation confidential, but it isn't working, calls started coming from other communities asking about the situation. The reason why they were told to keep it confidential is that they felt the threat was directed at the class itself, but the other students don't believe that, saying it was to the native students in general.

Both, native and non-native, students are tensed, some wouldn't even attend classes, some wont even come to the college because of it. We feel that the situation should have been made public the day it was made, to tell us about why they upped the Security. That way the students wouldn't feel so out of place, you know? Gods, I'm starting to get paranoid, I'm looking over my shoulder every time I walk through the hallways, and seeing those security guards walk back and forth in the hallway of the native student lounge and the other hallways just make it worse.

We have no idea who the student is that made the threat, which is why its making me paranoid, what happens if I happen to meet the guy outside in the street?..Would he recognize me as a student from the college and attack me? All we want to know is who is the guy that made that threat, but because of the college's policy, we can't get the information we want. I bet that by tomorrow, this would be on the newspaper. Well, that's all I'm going to say, cause this has been an emotional draining day, so I need to rest for a bit.

lil_kenobi_obi @ 2006-09-11T11:35:00

2006-09-11T15:40:10Z

Just an update on my life, I have no internet connection for the next week, I moved in with my aunt and uncle to stay while I attend College. As of for now, they have no internet until sometime this week. They will also be putting me on a limit on how long I can stay online, I just need to finish my homework and all that. Plus, I'm taking my laptop to be cleaned and upgraded with Internet Security sometime today or tomorrow. Ciao!

lil_kenobi_obi @ 2006-09-08T14:21:00

2006-09-08T18:23:08Z

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 4 questions. Any 4, no matter how personal, dirty, private, or random. I have to answer them honestly. In turn, you have to post this message in your own journal, and you have to answer the questions that are asked of you.

It BOGGLES the mind!

2006-08-16T18:10:27Z

Can you read this? Only 53 people on livejournal can.

I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I wuas rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae.

The rset can be a taotl mses and yhou can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs rpsoet it.

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Just an update...

2006-07-23T02:12:27Z

Argh!! Something is wrong with my Messenger, my Internet Explorer works, but not my messenger, it won't sign me on, and it ain't just me either, the same thing ish happening to my sisters. So, Mari, if you read this, this explains why I wasn't on all day....stoopid Messenger, ticking me off...Its a conspiracy I tell you! Meh, Mari, pass this message on to Spirit and Logan would you? if you ever got the chance to read this. Well, I'll just keep trying to sign in, while I do that, I'll watch King Arthur and maybe another movie with Clive, like Sin City or another movie, something that will keep me sane atleast..I'll update later. Seeya!

My Inner Child! ^_^

2006-06-21T00:34:57Z

How Old is Your Inner Child?

My inner child is six years old!

Look what I can do! I can walk, I can run, I can read! I like to do stuff, and there's a whole big world out there to do it in. Just so long as I can take my blankie and my Mommy and my three best friends with me, of course.
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Holy S**t...

2006-06-06T16:26:26Z

It was brought to my attention this morning when I was out what today is. Today is the 6th day of the 6th month of the year 06.. 06-06-06 ..freaky..

She's here! ^_^

2006-06-06T05:38:22Z

My kookum is in town, for those who don't know what I'm saying, Kookum means 'Grandmother' in cree. I'm planning to see her before my appointment with my caseworker over at the 101 Mall, I've applied for Welfare to help me pay my rent until I find a bloody job. Meh, I'll ramble on later today, peesh out! ^_^ V,,

I'm so proud... ^_^

2006-06-04T14:33:29Z

--sniffs and blows nose-- I just saw my lil sister over at the Airport, she's going on her school trip for graduating Grade 8. --sighs dreamily-- It seems so long ago that we were fighting over the simpliest things, we still do, but not as much anymore, she's finally growing up. I remember our arguments, fists flew, teeths bit, hair pulled, kicking, scratching, well she did most of those things, me I was just trying to fight her off. Yeesh, I remember one time she threaten me with a knife.... O_O; Thank goodness for mom though, lol, with all our fights, I'm surprised she didn't go gray, must be hair dye or something... 9_9 but we had our fun times as well, we weren't all fight and cry, hell no. I'm protective of my lil sisters, if someone tried to hurt them, I would try to hurt them back, regardless how old they are. well I think I've rambled enough for now, I'll ramble more of misc. stuff later on today. Peesh out! ^_^ V,,

Hah! Finally!

2006-06-03T17:57:43Z

Hehe, finally got an LJ account, my internet is like screwing with me, wont let me create an account, so I asked a friend to help me and she did. Thanks to her, much love! ^_^ V,,